The hardest week....

When I was diagnosed with cancer I didn't know what grade and stage. Doctors do not talk about end game until you are very much there, and even then you have to start the conversation and ask the questions because they will not volunteer that information until they know you are ready/need to hear it. But as a society when we hear the word cancer that is inevitably where our minds immediately go.

New Year 2020

I started this year staring down the barrel of my first round of treatment. I wasn't scared, in fact I was so ready to finally get started with what I hoped would be the beginning of the end, or at least a temporary let up in what had already been over a year of treatment. I let my imagination run away with all the things we would do when we finally got an all clear, all the places we'd go to celebrate, all the champagne we'd drink....