Our one year wedding anniversary

Sorry for the blogging silence! Our beautiful baby Oscar arrived via induction, rather early last Saturday morning and we have been living in our beautiful, slightly sleep deprived little baby bubble ever since.

There might be more about all of that another time, but right now it’s all about the second biggest date in our lives. 

Today is not only our little guys actual due date, it’s also our one year wedding anniversary and this is my love letter to the man who until one week ago was my number 1! 

They say the first year of marriage is the hardest, I’m not sure why but a surprising amount of people do.

For us in some ways ‘they’ were absolutely right. If 2017 was our most magical and amazing year to date then 2018 was by far the worst. As newlyweds we hoped our first year of marriage would be full of fun, fancy food, weekends away and one hell of a honeymoon. Making the most of our late 20s before eventually starting a little family in the future.

What we got was a bladder cancer diagnosis with a little one on the way.

I think you learn a lot about yourself, your relationship and what’s really important in life when you are given news like this and I have definitely learnt just how amazing my husband really is. 

If this was a test then I think it’s fair to say we passed! Tom has been my rock right from the off! He’s been to every single appointment, held my hand through every blood test and injection, made me laugh at midnight more times than I can remember when the anxiety really starts to kick in and patiently listened to all my rants as my brain tried to rationalise and process just what the hell was actually going on. 

The extra pressure it put on our relationship could have caused all sorts of fights, but it amazes even me (I can be quite hot headed) that we’ve actually laughed more than we’ve cried this year. We’ve faced every challenge together, safe in the unwavering knowledge that the other one has our back, and headed into each new challenge with optimism and positivity. We started out as a team and we are now a little family of three (four if you count the dog). We’ve made it through this year together and we are ready for the next set of challenges this disease and life in general might throw at us. 

This new year is a whole new adventure for us and I can’t wait. If this is us at our worst then I can’t wait to find out how we’ll be at our best. And maybe one day we’ll get that 5 star honeymoon!