Ended BCG on Tuesday with mixed emotions...number one because for about an hour on Tuesday afternoon I though I was going to go crazy from the pain: imagine being so desperate for a wee you’re literally sweating and yet you can’t/don’t need to go! It was my one fault for forgetting to take painkillers before hand so they took a while to kick in..
Secondly the pain took a little longer than usual to wear off and I was still in a bit of pain on Wednesday too.
Thirdly it was a bit of a full on week with Christmas orders for my baking business so I probably didn’t rest as much as I should have so I’m still feeling pretty tired...but it was Christmas busy so that’s okay!
And fourthly and the big one, I really wanted to feel like celebrating and I am so relieved it’s over but at the same time I feel very anxious about getting an infection right before Christmas. I’ve been drinking a lot of water and getting very paranoid at every little bladder pain...I’m just going to take it easy and slowly ease myself into Christmas, Tom dosnt finish till Monday so we have a few more days to get into the spirit of things.
I’ve got my appointments through for January: Both a ct scan and a meeting with my consultant, I have a feeling there will be an operation date to follow very soon too so hoping to make the most of a few weeks of festivities before we get back on the treatment treadmill again in the new year...obviously hoping for lots of positive news but not even allowing my mind to go there anymore!
Hope everyone has a very lovely Christmas, and sending so much love to anyone having to spend time in hospital this season as a patient or staff.
Thanks for reading,
Katie xxx
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