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New Year, Same Me!

Its been a week since new years eve and I've been away with my family on holiday in Northumberland. Ive had the most amazing week re-grouping and getting ready for 2019.

One of those weeks...

The baby's been sick all over himself and the carry cot again and I’ve just stood in a puddle of dog wee whilst trying to clean him up. Just another crazy week of #mumlife

One whole month with our little man

Today marks one full month with our little magic bean and I couldn’t be happier! 

Our one year wedding anniversary

Sorry for the blogging silence! Our beautiful baby Oscar arrived via induction, rather early last Saturday morning and we have been living in our beautiful, slightly sleep deprived little baby bubble ever since.

Our Macmillan baby shower

Last Sunday we had our baby shower with a bit of a difference! Initially, before I found out I was pregnant and in the first few weeks before we received my diagnosis I was almost certain I didn’t want a baby shower at all.

One month to go till baby...

The last few months have been a whirlwind of doctors appointments, meetings with my midwife, extra scans, an operation and all sorts of tests. I'm hoping that giving birth will be one of the happiest things to happen this year ans as such I'm not too frightened about it. It'l be a nice novelty to have the pregnancy being centre of attention and not being treated like an inconvenience making all other procedures more difficult for a change.

Cancer and pregnancy: Our 7 month cystoscopy

I've been thinking a lot lately about how cancer is effecting this pregnancy. Because this is my first baby the two are one and the same to me. I think I'm fortunate that I don't really know any different. We are lucky that for the last few months since the operation we have been able to do a decent job of putting cancer to the back of our minds and focusing all of our attention on making plans to meet our new arrival.

Everything I know about fear, and the hardest blog post I've had to write

This post was one of the hardest I've ever written but I've been doing a lot of listening to the You, Me and The Big C Podcast this week after the tragic passing of Rachael Bland. I had only been following Rachael on Instagram since my diagnosis back in March but I found her so inspiring and amazing and I was really sad when I heard the news on Wednesday.

Pregnancy: Expectation V's Reality

I think it's fair to say that I haven't had the most typical pregnancy, however all of that aside (I'm taking five minutes away from cancer talk...because fatigue!) pregnancy is nothing at all how I imagined it would be!

Sharing my story and the first steps to raising more awareness for bladder cancer

The first few weeks after being told I potentially had bladder cancer were the hardest. Going through investigative treatment, not knowing if the baby would be okay and the agonising wait for results were one thing, but the other was the feeling of being totally alone.

Last birthday before baby

I remember turning 23 so vividly. I was in Italy at the time with my parents. I had just graduated from uni, I had just been dumped from my 4 and a half year relationship and I had been kicked out of my house. I didn't know what was next for me and I felt thoroughly miserable. Turning 23 felt like the universe sticking the knife in a little bit further...I felt sooooooo old! (Ha!)

Not all disabilities and illnesses are visible

I didn’t get chance to  post a blog this week, I had loads lined up and ready to go but then I had a very busy week to contend with and I didn't get chance! Although not the one I had originally planned to share, this seemed like a much better post for today.