Scanxiety but make it bigger!

I havn't posted in quite a while, even tho I have had a post all written up and ready to go for the past three months! The reason for my raidio silence for once wasn't all bad. In fact it was very very  good! 

Lessons from the first Lockdown

I thought it was about time I got back to blogging and it made sense to me to start with a blog about why I felt the need to take a little bit of a break from it in the first place. 

A mental break...

 Hello long neglected blog. I realise it has been over three months since my last post but a lot has happened in that time and I needed to take a break both mental and physically as sharing my journey suddenly felt really hard to do.

Cancer Treatment, Covid-19 and Mental Health Week

Life right now for all of us is so far removed from what we're used to and in some ways there are things about this enforced downtime that I'm actually loving. It has been really nice having Tom at home, even if he is locked away in his upstairs office a lot of the time. I'm really enjoying our daily family walks. I'm also enjoying the break from the outside world and all the pressure that comes along with that. In the absence of all the outside noise and interference I have been able to focus on what's really important to me and what's important to us as a family.

Cancer Treatment During COVID-19

Unfortunately you can't press pause on underlying health conditions. They have very little regard for the current pandemic and although many treatments have been postponed (mine included) there are certain things that simply cannot wait, however much we might like them to be!

A letter from one of the 1.5 million...

     

I'm sure we've all heard in the news about the 1.5 million most vulnerable people set to receive a letter from the government advising them that they are the most at risk from COVID-19 and that they should remain shielded for a minimum of 12 weeks. And I'm sure we've all felt incredibly lucky not to be in that situation.

The state of things....

This blog is and has always been about navigating a new life with cancer. Right now life seems very surreal and scary, but also still whilst living with cancer.

The hardest week....

When I was diagnosed with cancer I didn't know what grade and stage. Doctors do not talk about end game until you are very much there, and even then you have to start the conversation and ask the questions because they will not volunteer that information until they know you are ready/need to hear it. But as a society when we hear the word cancer that is inevitably where our minds immediately go.

New Year 2020

I started this year staring down the barrel of my first round of treatment. I wasn't scared, in fact I was so ready to finally get started with what I hoped would be the beginning of the end, or at least a temporary let up in what had already been over a year of treatment. I let my imagination run away with all the things we would do when we finally got an all clear, all the places we'd go to celebrate, all the champagne we'd drink....

BCG Week Six

BCG Week Five

Well it’s a been a week: Somewhere between keeping up with Christmas orders for my business and getting overly emotional about the election, by Thursday night I well and truly crashed. Thank god we got the telly sorted in our bedroom just in time! 

BCG Week Four

I hesitated about writing this post on week four of BCG because I don’t know if I have anything new to say and I’m a little concerned I’m starting to sound like a broken record...if I’m starting to get sick of myself rabbiting on then I can’t imagine how you guys might feel.

BCG Week Three

Cuddles with Oscar after a day at his grandmas. 

This blog was supposed to be published yesterday but I fell asleep and by the time I woke up Oscar was home so I decided to put it on hold until this morning.